Im yours alone

Looking back at my draft emails, im reading all that was never sent out. trust me, there was plenty i had to bare and share. and i didnt want it to be done with anyone else but you. and now i realise how much ive grown since then. i realise how much ive changed emotionally. true im still a hopeless romantic but my heart has hardened. it takes more to melt my heart now. here i go again......

Baby.... you make me all manja. you just need to be you to melt my heart. you make me feel a rush of mixed emotions. you make me wanna give up all the world jus to be in your arms with your lips on mine. i dont remember what its like to kiss you or to be in your arms anymore. but i know that no one does it like you. funny how everything seems to stop when im with you, how nothing else matters.

Call me selfish, but i think love is selfish.

Its rare to see an emotional post from me here ever since weeks back. its been the longest time since i had posts dedicated to you. paragraphs having you in them. and needlessly to say, even if they all stopped, my heart still hasnt stopped. its weird how this heart doesnt feel like mine. it feels like... its co-owned by you. it beats faster or misses a beat at times when i think of you. and its not like i can explain why.

Changing the topic... its hilarious talking to toy boy. he has a hell load of crap going on. heres snippets of our conversation:

S: how do u know when its coming back cuz its ultimately urs?
S: that one is tricky right?
D: u're not supposed to know
D: and u know what.. if u knew, it really wouldnt be much fun anymore

S: hmm but how would u know if the person's the one
S: u see. thats part is another exciting part right!!
S: haha
S: u're not supposed to know, and u know what.. if u knew, it really wouldnt be much fun anymore
S: is that ur answer again? ahha!
D: no no
D: this answer is more cliche
S: =.=
D: YOU'LL JUST KNOW IT

Can you believe this guy?!